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this post was inspired by mi good friend, thirtydaes

wikipedia defines accountability as ” ‘A is accountable to B when A is obliged to inform B about A’s (past or future) actions and decisions, to justify them, and to suffer punishment in the case of eventual misconduct’ ^[1].”

do you remember when the 8 teens beat up the cheerleader, and filmed it for youtube? the public saw an innocent teen beat up strictly for the world to enjoi on video. yet, when i first saw the story on the news, they mentioned that this “innocent” teen previously talked a bunch of shit about the girls on myspace prior to the beatings! of course, you dont hear about that minor detail because everyone has such sympathy for the victim. now, understand this before i continue: i DO NOT condone what the teens did to this poor girl. they did NOT have to beat her like that! with that said…lets get into this.

people seem to think that just because they are capable of posting a blog, comment, a tweet or such on the internet, that real life ceases to exists. they get comfy with the notion that its another world that has little to no attachment to reality! so in the case of the cheerleader - if, in fact, she WAS talking shit about these girls - did she not even stop to imagine the consequences before hitting the ’submit’ button? chances are, she did not, and let her mouth (fingers) write a check that overdrew her asses account. plain and simple, she got her mother fuckin ass whooped.

let mi say something that may shock you: THIS IS REAL LIFE! when you build up enough balls to say shit about someone, you had best be prepared for said someone to step to you about it. be it on a forum, radio show, interview, or even typical conversation. we seem to have let hip hop fool us all into thinking we are all “tough guys/gals” when most of the time, this is NOT the case. why are so many people so damn tough behind a firewall or microphone, and when confronted, turn into backpedaling pussies???

yet, even pussies will become the ultimate gangstas when backed into a corner, and anyone within a miles radius will feel the wrath. need we forget about the Columbine shooting? kids pushed too far by people with no grasp of everyday consequences. i can mildly relate to that miself, as i was a victim of bullying and reacted violently. the funny part was the fact that everywhere i went after that, mi peers were respecting mi more because i refused to take that shit.

but, i digress, sorry…

the point of this post is Accountability, right? Lil Kim was held accountable for sleeping with BIG while still seeing Faith Evans, rapper Saigon was held accountable for talking shit about Mobb Deep, Don Imus was held accountable for the “nappy eaded hoes”, Eazy-E for his unsafe sex practices. even 50 cent was held accountable for the nigguhs he pissed off (and he took 9 bullets for it).

sometimes, it is our own family (or extended family) that gas us into thinking that we are superior or untouchable. ive seen youngsters brought up in good households, go to college, fuck it all up, getting exposed to local ruffians, start doing heavy drugs, and begin to think that they are invincible! they lose sight of people that will confront you simply because of the company you keep (even i was beat-down by an asian gang in high school, because of what mi homies did to their homies - and i was lucky. the asian gangs around norcal are known for kicking in doors). YOU may be innocent of what your friends do, but the person on the other end of the 9mm doesnt give a fuck of what YOU did or didnt do! trust that. ive had good friends die tragically because of their associations. it sucks, and its not a good thing, but it IS real life.

i have had to edit posts here on mi blog because of personal references, and certain people mentioned. i try to not let mi hands type before mi brain has had a chance to process the consequences. SOMEONE is going to hold mi accountable for the things i say and do….and they have every right to do so. i can tell you this; i am prepared for anything that may come. so i want ALL of you to read this and other blogs that deal with responsibility, actions, and accountability. remember that every action has a reaction - be it positive or negative. thus, every action has a consequence.

“What goes up must come down
Spinnin’ wheel got to go ’round” - Blood, Sweat and Tears

Tags: 50 cent, accountability, actions, consequences, family, fatherhood, gangs, high school, hip hhop, karma, mobb deep, saigon, teens, youngsters

forums, message boards, communities, what-ever you call them - have been around for some time now. you can still find mi digging for information and user opinions on forums, but getting mi to actually join one is a chore. i suck mi tongue when confronted with the entire process of singing up for yet, another message board! one can be thankful for the new wave of social networking and web 2.0 applications that reach beyond the limited capabilities of myspace and typical forums.

for those unaware of what a BBW is; Big Beautiful Woman - coined by a magazine for plus-sized women. our good friend wikipedia has a fairly accurate definition of the term and its history, and as with everything under the sun, it has its own community (also referred to as the size-acceptance community) — made up of BBWs, SSBBWs (Super-Sized BBW), BHMs (Big Handsome Men) and admirers (the category i would fit into). we have HUNDREDS of events, such as the annual BBW Vegas Bash, monthly nightclubs like Club Sinsations or the weekly Butterfly Lounge, and even a magazine that rivals the class and style of Playboy called, BODacious Magazine! the scene even boasts its own A-list with such names as; DJ Skelly, Los Angeles rapper Tree, and the world-famous Goddess Patty (who appeared on Jackass 2). i could go on about the infinty that is the BBW community, but i would like to tell you a bit about some of mi friends (old and new) that have recently found their way to our favorite twitterhood!
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My name is Olivia, and I’m a BBW webmodel from Portland, Oregon. When I started modeling, I was unsure that I was even someone that people wanted to look at. I saw a few websites and a few magazines and had some interest from friends that I’d talked to online. Now I’ve been webmodeling for 3 years and love every minute. I have met some of the most awesome people online, and now I’m meeting new people on twitter. How can life get any better than this? Some of the most sexiest BBW’s and the greatest admirers out there, and I’m glad to say I’m a part of it.

I’ve been involved in the BBW/fat-acceptance community in some capacity since I was a senior in college, almost 15 years ago. I started as a budding young activist, then ended up on the sidelines after getting my fill of the movement’s internal politics. No matter what, I’ve never stopped being an open voice about not only my attraction to fat women, but also to my conviction of their rights to empowerment in all its forms. So, I find myself virtually (and sometimes physically) rubbing elbows with a wide cross-section of communities, from the activists to the social event coordinators to the swingers to the adult industry workers (on- and off-screen). As I said, I love fat women. But most of all, I also just love people — when I’m not pounding my head against the desk at some of their latest stupidities!

Hey all I am Bi-servantgirl, BSG or Cat. I am a BBW Model, Web Cam hostess, and will have a couple of sites coming out soon. Thanks to Tofu and Desiree I am addicted to Twitter, hate to see what happens when I get a new phone.. Holy moly.. I use the web for it now, and then Tofu had to go and tell us about Twirl, OMG!! Anyways, I am a dork, I like to chat, and have fun. By now everyone who knows anything about me, know I love Harry Potter. I love Non-Fiction, my drug of choice. So come and follow along, be glad to have ya biservantgirl on tweets…

My name is T_Devil, I have been a part of the BBW Community for little bit longer than 12 years. I have always wanted to be a part of it because I really love fat girls and I want to see them do well in life. I definently love the BBW Modeling business because I have some friends who are models. I’m a fan, but these girls really are friends to me. I hope to increase my presance in the BBW world with my writing and other creative talents that I’m constantly developing. I hope to move to Seattle and make a living of it. We all dream of doing what we want and getting paid for it. This is my dream. I am willing to do what it takes to become a presence in the community that doesn’t have to speak the loudest, because it is the one with one of the most profound effects.

Hey everyone, this is ~Secret~ and please believe me I am the only Secret you will ever want to keep to yourself! I’m still fairly new to all this bbw community, I got my start in it all in April of 2007 when I went to shoot for BODacious Magazine and ended up in Issue 7….it was amazing because coming from where I’m from…us big girls aren’t shit to anyone. My first movie comes out August 28th from that shoot as well called Bumpin Body Phat. I am currently in the process of savin up to get moved to LA or Vegas to be more accessible to shoots and hope to get my website up and running soon. I hope everyone can come and join us all at twitter.com soon.

Hey ya’ll… my name is Desiree Devine and I would consider myself a newbie to the BBW community. I have not been a BBW my entire life, but at 6′ and 300lbs, I think I’m settling in nicely. The thing I notice is that no matter your size, people are attracted to confidence and with all of the support I have I would seem
unappreciative if I was anything but! My first experience into the “BBW World” came at the end of 2007 when I was asked by Samantha38G to do a video with her in Florida for Sensational Video, without much hesitation I agreed. For me, I am proud to say that I am a BBW porn starlet… I have no shame and no regrets. I have had the time of my life and met some amazing individuals that I can honestly say will be life long friends.

{this final twitter-buddy is active within the weight-loss community.
she still considers herself a BBW, and shes still mi homegirl. read on..}

I’m 20 from Connecticut. Single mother. Trying to lose weight but still want to be thick. I want to run or mange a 24hr homeless shelter. I am Christian, I like to blog and meet new and different people. Young but with many goals; I want to lose weight enough to have a flat stomach but still thick and have curves. Main reason is for health and for my son, but also so I can feel sexier and be able to do more things physically. I vlog on youtube and also blog about it at chunkyricanxo.tumblr.com

Tags: admirer, bbw, bbw network, bhm, big girl, club sinsations, community, curvy, fa, fat, pic, ssbbw, tweetdeck, twhirl, twitter, weight loss

Born Bernard Jeffrey McCullough on Oct. 5, 1957, in Chicago, Mac grew up on the city’s South Side. His publicist said he died Saturday from complications of pneumonia. He had suffered from sarcoidosis, an inflammatory lung disease that produces tiny lumps of cells in the body’s organs, but had said the condition went into remission in 2005. He recently was hospitalized and treated for pneumonia, which his publicist said was not related to the disease - chicago tribune.com

got the news in a txt message from mi lil cousin Meezy Banger. i thought he was bullshittin. but not even 20 minutes before posting this, i googled it and found it was true. this hella sucks.
Mr. Mac was one of mi favorite comedians. he 1st captured mi with his def comedy appearance when he so boldly stated “i aint scared of you motha fuckas!”. his movie characters left mi dying with laughter! remember the scene in Don’t Be a Menace to South Central While Drinking Your Juice in the Hood? Mac’s character was the self-hating police officer that was a parody of the black cop from Boys in the Hood. i havent laughed that hard in a while. “I HATE BLACK PEPPER!”

anyway, i never got the chance to see him perform LiVe. i would have seriously preferred to see him than Chris Rock any day.

damnit man…why did you have to go?

Tags: bernie mac, def comedy jam, dies, house party, menace, pneumonia, uncle vester

tonight, mi crew Righteous Movement took over the airwaves on KDVS FM in Davis. it was good to hear mi dudes holdin it down . theek, sol tais, and skurge were freestylin, spittin live, and hosting (like DONNIE SIMPSON!). twas truly a good time. so much, i was compelled to call-in from Los Angeles and remotely kick it on the air.

it occurred pretty late to mi; i should record this. so i fired up sound forge and recorded the last 16mins or so. i know, i know. it aint the whole thang, but you can still vibe out as i did…

 

 Righteous Movement on KDVS 080808: Play Now | Play in Popup | Download

Tags: davis, hip hop, jaes ynth, kdvs, Music, podcast, righteous movment, sacramento, skurge, sol, tais, theek, tofu916

this morning, mi friendfeed caught a link submitted by marshal sandler that i thought i would share with yall. its a pretty cool site/script call Wordle. with this fun tool, users can create word clouds similar to tag clouds that are beautifully or randomly generated by either typing a bunch of random words or by entering a url with rss or atom. you can print the clouds or save them to the wordle gallery and share with the homies. the pic above shows a cloud i made by typing in mi url. i called it “in a nutshell”.

if you have some time on your hands, go check it out. its awsome and fun!

Tags: friends, fun, random, word cloud, wordle

another great song. this one from the movie sweeney todd. arranged by steven sondheim, as sung by jonny depp and alan rickman. enjoi, comment, and subscribe! thanks!

tofu916 youtube channel

Tags: Alan Rickman, Helena Bonham Carter, Johnny Depp, Pretty Women, Sweeney Todd, Tim Burton, tofu916

highlights from the mario tennis (64) championships @ the GMS (grown man spot) where Theek took the Obama Belt! he single handedly took out old rival One Buck, Donnie and newcomer; Snizzle Blizzle!!! the competition was stiff, but Theek wasnt worried one bit! lets take a look…

Tags: gamers, mario, N64, nintendo, tennis, video games

i was well aware that things would never be the same

promised to take care of you, protect you from the game

though you were born to a doomed family

both of us LoVed you, relieved that you finally came

all fingers n toes present

daddys favorite present

from the past to the present…

i just wanna let you know the truth, while you are probably being lied to. you are mi little girl, and though your mom and i arent likely to ever get along, know that i called her to see you just before posting this blog entry. so whats keeping you from seeing mi? i dont know. could it be the measly $100 i owe mommy? could it be the hatred your grandparents share for daddy? could it be daddys new GF? im not sure. your other grandma misses you too…she often gets the same treatment. so when daddy fucks up, grandma gets treated as if shes daddy. does that make sense? it will someday.

the date of this posting marks the 3rd week i havent seen you, and its driving mi crazy. and your grandparents like threating to call the cops on mi for various reasons (though i called the sheriff on them once) so there will be no surprise visits from daddy. adults are so stupid, scooty. im sorry YOU have to be a pawn in our games. i would never do that to you. i would never ignore your mothers calls, especially concerning you. i try to talk to you, but mommy lets the phones go to voicemail. i know you hear the house phone ringing all day, but your grandparents do something called “screening”. thats what you do when you dont wanna talk to bill collectors, police, and other family members on the phone. does that make sense? it will someday.

just wanted to reach out to you the only way that i can at this point. its kinda sad aint it?
here we are, a mere 15 miles from eachother, and i gotta blog about you and cc mommy in an email, when i would much rather see you and give you hugs and kisses.

well, im gonna end this cause im a little upset and dont wanna step on too many toes. i miss you scooty. oh, and when mommy says i dont do anything for you, ask her if shes ever allowed mi to. then prepare yourself. at the cost of mi pride, i am taking steps to ENSURE miself a place in your life! does that make sense? no worries. it will someday.

i LoVe you,
-=daddy=-

Tags: baby moma drama, betrayal, fatherhood, interracial, multi-cultural, trust

test…

The homie, Roney Smith (aka @Seedoflife) tagged mi! i like this tag, cause its relating to music! aaaah yesh, and the theme is interesting as well; songs that are shaping your summer! awsome idea, and a tag from an awsome dude! lets do it! here are the instructions:

“List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they’re not any good, but they must be songs you’re really enjoying now, shaping your spring summer. Post these instructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they’re listening to.”

7. Busta Rhymes - Turn Me Up Some
Truly a great Dilla track. Not only is Busta flippin his patterns and weaving his usual lyrical magic, but the tightened drum kit, with a killer set of melodies. Dilla & Busta do it again. Peep the Redman sample!
This track always make mi slouch a lil in mi seat, headnodding terribly…

6. Dez Dickerson - MODERNAIRE
okay, yall remember this song from Purple Rain, however, it was not on the soundtrack! thanks to some diehard Paisley Parkers, the song is in its entirety on youtube! this is mi only way to hear this song, as THIS vinyl is hard to get ahold of without spending a grip. the open highhat on the snare when the hook runs is that small bit of genius. you cant help but do the damn dance! heh

5. Super - Misty Hours
im SO convinced this group no longer exists. they sound like a lounge act, and i think theyre from Finland or some place. I got a sample CD years ago and was hooked. then it became harder and harder to find their damn music. wait…just did more digging. heres some info on the group. anyhow, “misty hours” is like an ode to summer and city life. “come stand here on the empty square, high on nightly air”. Minna Joenniemi on lead vocal…her voice is enchanting. hit mi privately, and i’ll give you a taste. their music is awsome.

4. CunninLynguists - Yellow Lines f. Phonte & Witchdoctor
serving suggestion: this is a song you listen to after doin the nasty. the window open, blinds blowing gently. youre either getting rubbed, or your rubbing someone lightly. the music speaks for the summer indeed. and you’ll need to say nothing while this song plays in the background. notable lyric:
Put a spell on ‘em, Forgive me Lord but I’m hell on ‘em
Baby we grown folk, So let me longstroke
And send em back to they man with my smell on ‘em
Let me be quiet before I tell on ‘em - Phonte

3. Janet Jackson - Warmth
if there ever was a theme song for oral sex, THIS was it. not that summer has everything to do with sex, but i dig this song for various reasons. 1st off, Jimmy Jam & Terry Lewis produced this sexual wonder, and its so minimal, yet, oh so sensual. the bass is infectious. the lyrics; oh so nasty. great job, Flyte Tyme!

2. Devin The Dude - Dont Wanna Be Alone
damn, another ballad. this one is really a hip hop ballad with a twist. its comedy, but its a great friggin song! for once, im stumped on the sample, but it goes to work!

1. The Beach Boys - In My Room
“in this world i lock out all my worries and my fears.” this has been a favorite of mine for some time now, but it really sums up mi summer. i feel so comfortable and safe within the walls of the studio control room. i am able to just focus on music, locking out the BS and concentrating at the task at hand. alternatively, when at home, im usually in mi bedroom. thats where mi computers are, mi xbox360, clothes, and MPC2000. needless to say, this was definately #1 for shaping mi hermit of a summer.

and now i tag mi favorite people that havent already been tagged:

Moneke - Tais - Desiree Devine - 2TheHead - Nicky Black - Jack Lhasa - ChristyXCore

goooood times, yall!

yee!

Tags: blogging, games, list, Music, seedoflife, summer, tag