News Flash: IM NOT PERFECT (edited for clarity)!!!!
Posted in Randumb, Rants, autobiography on Apr 17th, 2008

update: yesh folks, ive edited this post, to protect the innocent.
mi internet persona is no different than mi own. im not an internet gangsta {or a gansta at all. please dont get it twisted. however…}. if i talk some shit online, i WILL bring it to your face. this dude use d to be a *big fan of mine, and was trying to down mi to get at mi fiencee while i was finishing mi internship. {} i soked him, and he likes telling people that he was “jumped”. bah!
i couldnt keep mi 1st girlfriend happy, so she left mi for a dude in Missouri or somethin. i gave up a full scholarship to wake forest university because i thought i couldnt live without her, and we moved to LA after High School. she later got pregnant and they now have a happy family. then i got married and had a kid, and was a lousy husband, and a terrible father. i only see mi daughter for like 2-3 days outta the week, and i “dont support her’”. this is a quote from a confrontation. im not a deadbeat dad, and im determined to brake the sterotype.
what else….lemmie see
ive been locked up for assault and battery {juvi hall}. i used to live in long beach. (edited the list of drugs i used to sell} i used to sell drugs to pay rent. ive been shot at. {edited} as a youth, i used to get a kick outta armed robbery. i have premature male pattern blah-ness (hence the hats/shaved head). i was a suicidal teenager, i was a self-mutilator. as a result, ive been hospitalized 4 times. i was on zoloft when it 1st came out, and im supposed to take meds now, but they kill mi sex drive, so i dont take em. did i mention that im a sex addict? ive pimped prostitues and escorts. flipped mi bike in a fit of rage. i have anger issues.
im good at is selling; women, porn, drugs and music. i have a degree as a Surgical Technologist, but have never been in the field, as that was a backup plan to the music. mi daughter is black & white. her grandparents hate mi because of the type of nigger i am. ive used the phrase “you ‘member” in conversation. i cried when tony montana killed his bestfriend. ive fucked the wives of other men . ive unintentionally broken up bestfriends. ive fucked without a condom . ive been known to play with hearts…but i dont see it that way.
i like fat women. i play video games. i know hax0rs. i live mi dreams. i was into the “phreaking” scene when i was younger. i had a myspace beta page. i used to work in call centers.i lost mi virginity @ 9 yrs old to a 16 yr old girl who may have been “slow”. i LoVe spongebob. in fact, i LOVE animation. im a big kid. i was expelled in the 9th grade for stabbing the JV quarterback (he was trying to bully mi). the dr stuck his finger in mi ass just to tell mi i was constipated…in front of mi [then] girlfriend.
…what the fuck else do yall not know about mi, since i have this “perfect image on the net”? im a fuckin BAD guy. im scum of the fucking earth. “a bottom feeder. a selfish manipulator, dealer, pornographer, addict, pot smoker, womanizer, who flies by the seat of his pants and has little-man complex.”
yet, i could have sworn that i made that clear. if anyone was mistaking mi for some type of “great guy” or a “real stand-up guy”, im sorry to have disappointed you. hopefully, you didnt get the wrong idea from mi music, or mi “internet persona”, or the people i associate with.
edits: though wating to share mi life and past (putting MI OWN business out there, not others), i had to make edits as to not further “nicriminate” miself. while ive never been processed in county, now wouldt be the time to go. ive done dumb shit alot of young black males do. and, once youve said it, its out there. i a fully aware of this. i did get a few calls, and people/family that were confused if this was current or still in the past. ALOT of that was mi past. tfor those that know, i dont expect you to forget what youve read. that last thing i need is some case creepin back to bite mi in the ass.
this occured to mi after someone i truly cared about reached out and showed concern about mi being. so i edited it. it was kinda selfish to vent without concern.







Hey at least you are HONEST with yourself and everyone else! I say that makes ya a standup kinda guy, even if it’s JUST on the internet.
Lmao!
I still think you pretty cool. Although, I think there will be times that I may not like you! LOL
But can we still kick it? :o) You know who you are and you are not afraid to be real. You got moxie, kid, and I love ya for it!
It seems to me that you just laid it right out there for the world.. Sounds good to me.. And um for your information everyone has baggage whether they admit it or not. Some have carry on and then there are those who have Samsonite. You can cut in line in front of me next time you need to check in your baggage. I will be checking mine right along with you… MUAH..
tofu this is AWESOME! the writing and imagery was incredible and your honesty is breathtaking. if you think any of that makes you only
i have news for you: you are also more than those things. but honestly, I’m glad i’m on the good side of you cause i hate it for the ones who get the bad side lol. So…errrr…ummm…I’m gonna stay on your good side sir hehe. and any advice you can give me on how to keep that going i surely appreciate hehe.
seriously tofu, this is what it’s about man: self examination, self-acceptance, and then the will to change. i ain’t going NO-where!…
Damn my dude. We ain’t got a ton in common but we got some things, matter of fact I am gonna write something up and reply to your post in my own way.
Tofu, what ever you have done or still do today is not all of who you are. people who judge you dont matter, it only matters how you judge yourself and who you believe you to be. if you believe your a bad person then you’ll be that. we all have issues and we all have some fucked up whit happen to us, and we all react stupidly at times. but its how we learn from the fuck ups n oh shits that change us to what we want out of life. im only 20 but the tofu i have chatted with and read is a good person at heart. but thats only my opinion, your opinion is all that matters any ways. i hate to read how down you are on yourself but its good that you realize your wrongs… now its up to you if you continue them or change them.
one thing i have to make clear!!!! YOU ARE NOT THE SCUM OF THE FUCKING EARTH… trust me there are many more people on this earth that can take that title alot better then you, you’ll ever fit it!!! to be the scum of the earth you have to meet a few requirements….rape, mollestation, pedifile, serial killer, and a few more but the little shit you have done doesnt compare to that type of shit…. you have never destroyed a persons soul…when you do that you can claim scum of the earth.
your friend,
Mallory
i had to come back to this because i’m felling angry as fuck right now and i appreciate the venom in this post. fucking shit man. fucking fucking fucking shit!!
this is my first time here. found you from jnez’s page. i must say…wow. one of my mantras is there is value in being honest and transparent. your honesty came through clearly. one of your commenters said that we all have baggage. she’s so right. at least your at a place where you can admit your past, in hope that you won’t relive many of those moments again. when you’re brutally honest about yourself like you were, who’s in a position to judge?
im right here with ya.
i should be on meds too, but they make life so fuzzy.
miss ya.