The IGNORE button
update: This is not about any one person in particular. Its more of a representation of certain events.
You probably know Im not sleep yet, but you should really act like it! I do most of mi business in the evening, and really dont need you pestering mi with utter bullshit. Sometimes you have something important to tell mi, and thats cool. I appreciate it, cause I like to be in the know. But after youve said what you have to say and we hang up, you need not call mi back 20 times about the exact same shit.
I know it sounds way mean, but Im being honest. Thats whats wrong with the world 2day; we cant be honest enough with one another to not be offended by honesty. I am guilty of not being as honest as I can be with people, out of fear of miscommunication. Be honest with people and they get all asshurt, and call you arrogant or an asshole. Now youre known as someone whos condescending, when all you were trying to do was not lie to their got damn faces!
I asked mi homie Skurge, “what ever happened to booing the wack nigguhs off the stage?”. He said , “wack nigguhs started carrying guns!”.
….so, where was I? Oh yeah! Im in studio quite often, either kickin it, or working on something, or working for someone – so these bullshit phone calls/txts become a distraction when Im creating or trying to force creativity. The same goes for when Im with mi Daughter. I already dont feel like I get enough time to see her, and youre calling mi over and over to the point where I turn off mi phone (and its RARELY off) !!! Its funny when I think about it…I usually break down how busy I am to people and pretty much give them a disclaimer for not being readily available. Its almost like I have to appologize in advance!
But Im not a TOTAL cock. When Im not so busy, I try to communicate and touch bases. I truly care about people, and wish I could be everywhere at once. I really do wanna know how you are, whats new in your life, how are the kids/wife/hubby or whatever. I also open mi ears for venting and mi shoulder for tears, because we ALL need that every once in a while…some a little more than others, but I aint mad at that. LiFe is harder for some people, and some need to reach out more frequently to stay grounded. Hell, I needed that a week or so ago. So if youre feeling close to the edge and decide to call mi of all people – I will drop everything and talk to you.
Hmmmm…now that Ive typed that out, I understand it more. Mabey its because for that moment in your life, I was the only mother fucker who WOULD listen to you and offer what I could. Now that everything is back to normal, you feel like you can talk about nothing and have a captive audience. So with the case in the 1st paragraph:….are you wrong for letting it become some sorta dependency, or am I wrong for noticing a dependency developing and not telling you about it??? Damn. Im just as fucked as you.
Well, nevermind then. Forget I said anything about it.
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Tags: annoying, co-dependency, cock, dependency, depression, fuck, honesty, skurge, truth
09.Mar.08 
Rants
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great post and you know i can relate. I am slightly opposite of you; I’ve limited my availability over the past few years. I am no longer reachable by telephone to many outside of my main family network; texting and IM is my preferable mode of communication. I hope that doesn’t make me a bad friend…it’s just i’ve gotten hooked on the advantages of communicating this way. By necessity, this means if you don’t have access to texting and IM, then i guess you don’t have…access to me. But come on who doesn’t have access to those anymore?
god damn.
this is when folks get put on the call reject list.
and thanks for always being there for me…
lmao at your disclaimer! Phone when necessary, text/email/IM otherwise. Get with it people!
I feel ya on both sides of this bro…sometimes its like, ummmm, I’m not feeling talkin to you, but then somebody reaches out when they need you and you don’t want to tell them later that, ummm, its cool when you need me, but you don’t need me every darn day…lol
I hate being on the phone but when someone calls I wish they were like bill collectors. Get to the point and then were done. What gets me the most is people who stay on the phone don’t say a word while they are both watching tv or having a conversation with someone else. Just blows my mind. HANG UP! aahhh…. Maybe its just me? hmm?